Tuesday, February 9, 2010
- Tuesday, February 09, 2010
maybe love wasnt just meant for me. gosh. i feeel so sad sia. like, i was bloghopping, and i read this guy's blog la. damn sweet sia, he post about the girl. sheeeeeshhhhh~. kalau la ade boyf mcm gytu *melts*, haha. anywayyyyyyyy, i miss having a boyf[k, da start mepek]. but, i seriouussslyyy missed having one. someone you know, who will always be there for you no matter what, somebody to hug&kiss, somebody you could rely on when you're down, somebody to complain about yr day, cut short~, somebody who'll be there for you. huakhuak. i missed having a boyf. i really did. okay, its just one weeek since he left me, 6 days to be exact. still feeling soooo lost&insecure. i always rely on him, but now, i have to move on and be independent. he's happy cos he found hys replacement, while i'm still frigging sad. okay, i admit, i was down just now, not beacause of that somebody, its just because i miss A. and aly says "its not wrong to miss somebody" , yeah, the feeeling just came. dont know why. i feeeel like crying. now i feeel so alone y'knw. i HATE this feeeling. boring seh hdop mcm gyny. :'( . and suddenly, i miss A, i miss hanging around with him, i miss his hugs&kisses, he's laughter, he's jokes, the way he pull my hair to make me scream, those times where we crack lame jokes and laugh at each other, the joy that we made, th times when we sat down the block and talk about stuffs, the times that i wanted to naik swing and nobody pushed me[but you did], the times when you hugged me tight and beg me not to go home yet, the times you pull my hand when i almost get knocked by the car, th sweeeet poems at night, th times we walked from tamp to simei, th times we share our food, th times you took a tissue and wipe away my tears,hugme&kiss my forehead when i cried. i miss going to the bubble tea shop with you, going home with you, hugging you. i miss talking to you at night, calling you smellyboy, then you'll call me "stinky". i miss waking up to your calls/text mxg's. i miss texting you every second. i miss everything about you.
typing all this made me cry real hard. like my tears are like droooling non stop since i first listed everything about you. i wanted to forget you, but its real hard. everywhere i go, there's always a memory with you. my heart hurts so bad. i swear i rallly hope for you to come back. but, now, there's no way. i try to be the strong girl that i wanted to be. but, thats not me. i know myself so well, no matter how hard i try to forget him, the memory just came back. :'( , *crycrycry*. i just hate myself for not succeding in forgetting you. im such a useless girl y'knw. :'( . XOXO,Labels: NOTSOPERFECTAFTERALL~
