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Friday, April 30, 2010

- Friday, April 30, 2010

'what happens if one day you wake up and i`m not next to you?'

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhh, exams.

i`m home. yeay`yeay! tadi had eng. sumpah susah gile.
but i like the compo. heh, aleh2 semangat seh, tules 500+ words. abei after recess, ade
paper 2. aleh2 ngantok. tpy kuatkan diri jgak! hahahaha. buat je. after that, this stupid teacher ask to bring everything back or he'll throw it. so im so lucky i brought 3/4 of the books home :D.
i only kene bring 3-4 books home. hahaha! yg laen kene pikul 7-8 books. sedeh ehhh. hahaha.
tapy aly champ ah tday. multi task eh, one hand hold the books, another hold phone, abey tak tau mcmne nak kuakan duet, naek bus. hahahaha. anyway, i should have bring my bag tday. went to inter after 30mins waiting for soffy. sorry babe, bkan kite tknk tunggu, aku nye bpak suro balek at 2. abei, takot takde time nak makan/print gmbr aly. so, kite jlan dlu. member binget sia bile on phone ngn aku. muahahahahahaha. sorrrry kite jln dlu(: , ohyeah, i met ain tadi! hahaha, rindu nye ngn die! :D. hmmmm, after that, went home. penat tau penat. haha.

babylove.

baby messaged me 4messages je tday): , i think he busy or something)): , last message, 2.32pm. now, 3.24pm. i wonder why he tak message): , i dont want to assume anything. so i`ll just shush. i`m trying to ignore what im feeeling.
tak pena bi tak text sampai gini. )':
what should i feeeel now? should i feeeeeeeeeeel hurt/sad/depressed?
what should i think? is he busy/ignoring me/sleeping?
)': , alll that i know is bleeed. (tk emo).
I DONT KNOW OKAY.

but he must know i love him to the fullest. ~

self-feeeeeeels.

[ dont read~]

; my head hurts more and more each day. my heart rants and rawrs. my legs are irritating! i keeeep on feeeeling that im fat[which i am!]. self-obsessed!
sometimes, i try not to think of the things that suddenly comes to my mind. i trust you. really. im keeeping everything i feeeel. why? simply cos i dont like fighting. i seriously dnt like fighting. and whenever i cry, i feeel that im a completely useless brat. i try to sound happy, just so you wont notice how i really feeel. thats how deeeeeeep my love is for you. i sometimes do wonder, what are you doing? dah makan belum. i nak message you. tapy i takot i kacau you. as im typing. im trying to tahan my tears from flowing down. yesterday, when i fell asleeeeep in class, i dreamt of you. i was crying. but i wipe it away, so nobody can hardly seeeee. (: . but bestfriend caught me with red eyes. she was like ' kau kenape maate merah?' i was like, 'huh, baru bngn la!' laughed and she believed. (: , i quickly asked teacher to excuse me to the toilet and cry my lungs out. abei, masok classs step mcm takde pape. lucky nobody ask(: . i'd the sweetest dream ever. i dreamt you was hugging me. aluhai, nak nanges. )': . you said i love you, siap ngn kneel down lagi. sedeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! now dah 4pm. die tk message2. )': , busy sgat smpi tk terigt nak message me i think(: , takpeluh. i`ll wait. i hope he's doing fine :D. cume tuhan je tau mcmne dea feeeel right now. )':
' give me the strength to pull through, cause it seeems like so much is going on'

xoxo, dea. )':

; note to self: get chocolates, to self-cheer(:

Labels: dontapologizeifyourenotsincere.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

- Thursday, April 29, 2010

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll, tmr's my exam. i`m scared. sumpah. stressed out these few days. i did my revision, but stilll nt confident of myself. please gimme strength to stay strong! mother's day is next weeek. 9thMay. i misss mama. miss talking to her, and hugging her everyday before i go sleeeep/school/anywhere. i hope she's doing fine in the other world. i want her to know. whatever happpens, i`ll never ever find a replacement for her. tetap sayang mama! )':
; aku jealous tgok org spend time ngn mak dorang. )':
i missss my mama! I DONT WANT STEPMOM! I WANT MAMA *CRIES*
special thanks to bestfriend&soffy for cheering me up when i was about to cry tadi. tak boley tgok ah mother's day nye offer ni sume. mcm sedeh gile. thanks for cheering me yer.
to aly: thanks for those encouraging words on the message! its great to have a babyg like you! )':
to boyf: thanks for being there for me. thanks for the *hugs*, support and all. iloveyou!
i got tuition later on! i think i wannna get some sleeeep now! heh, xoxo! :D

Labels: Well. Here it goes

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

- Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I THINK I`M FAT. i think i asked 123456789 peoples alrdy. askeed soffy/shav/aly/lala/peishan/syasya/normal peeeps like almost everyday. hahaha. i think they got bored of the same question already. ookay, so i got alot of updates. [well actually not] hahahahaha.

first, exam is 2days away. well, i am prepared for eng. i did my revision on summary&all those shxt. i read the dictionary12345times when im bored. hahaha, well not really read it. i just flip thru and find random words and their meanings. like, eg. love. hahahaha. okay, dah dah. :D.

secondly, i have this stupid awesome-st craving for icecreams. everyday without fail, i'll crave for 70icecream. muahahahaha! kesian tau dorg, hari2 kene tunggu aku beli icecream, dgn que bodoh die yg kdg2 panjang. MUAHAHAH. sorrrryyy babes.

thirdly, i am sad. why? cos firstly, he's ex is like coming back into he's life. and, honestly, i`m scared of losing him. thats the reason why i act very wierd. i trust him& never will i doubt he's love. i almost wanted to cry while talking to him tadi. but, control control. i hope he knows how much i love him.

fourthly, because my step mom dont like furry2 stuffs, i cant keeeep hamsters*cries*

fifthly, i came across(insertname)'s blog. i was so shocked to seee he/she post about me.

Monday, April 26, 2010 10.58pm.

'thats dea. her smiles will always be remembered'

wah, i didnt know you still remember me. that is effing shocking sia. asal dengan senyom aku eh~.

HAHAHAHAHAXDC:

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, im so dead tired this few days. i dont know whats wrong wimme. i`m having constipation[tak boley berak!]. SODEH SIA MEMBER !@#$%^&*. PURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. okay laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. laen kali baru update. lately nothing intersting happened in my life. i feeeel so dead these few days. kidsayang, revive me back! haahahahaa! xD. check2 nanti die cpr aku. mampos. hahahahahahaa(((:

you know there's a saying, ' sometimes when you fake a smile, others wont notice'

sooooooooooooooooooooooo, y'knw-y'knw ajelah! :D

XOXO,DEA-KID~HAHAHAHAHA(:

Labels: UHM. I THINK I LOVEE ICE CREAMS

Monday, April 26, 2010

- Monday, April 26, 2010

what shud i feeeel now? insecure? lost? should i just go under a rock and hide myself so that no one can find me. or should i ignore it and act as if nothing happened. what should i do. i`m down with tears again. yeah, i told soffy, 'lately i`ve beeeen crying over the smalllest stuffs'. what is wrong wimme?! ugh~. i feel happpy everytime he text me, its like it made my day and it shows me that he remembers me. although i cant really talk to him on the phone 24/7. or i dont get he's attention 24/7 . or even he's messages. yeah, i understand, he cant possibly be around me everytime *cries*. and, wondering why i post it here instead of telling him straight. i dont wnna hurt him anymore. i pity him. macam, y'knw, he's beeeen thru alot of hurt from other girls. i dont wnna worsen the hurt. i`m trying to make it better. i dont wnna burden him by saying, 'bi, i tak suke gini2.' or 'bi, i dont like that, CHANGE!?!' NO. never will. as much as i love him, i keeeep everything i feeeel inside. even leaving my old ways(suke merajok, suke complain, suke ngamok kalau tk reply message, etc.). yes, IT HURTS ME FUCKING MUCH. but, im doing all this for you. i find myself crying every night when i`m going to sleeeep. and when i wake up, i act as if nothing happened. i put a smile on my face to ease everyone's worries. i hardly say a thing to anyone. i always wanted to wake up hearing your voice/ checking my phn for your message. but, i know, i cant put on hope too much. its just hurting me worser. i always sounded happy while talking to you. but did you know what i really felt when you didnt text me, when you played your games are left me waiting on the other line, when you slept before me and left me talking all by myself, the times when i got something to say, but you ignored me and when you removed my name from your pm(kay, thats lame)<(but i stll feeeel sad). i know i didnt make a good girlfriend. i`m sorrry. these tears cant stop flooding over me. and now, i`m waiting for he's call. i hope i`ll stop crying and pretend that i`m okay. tapi sampai bile aku nak simpan ni sume dari die. i`m trying to make him happy. dah ckop die kene sekse ngn ppn laen~ :'( , butt, i cant believe im crying. ugh. and i dont wanna share my sadness with you, i`ll just share the happy moments with you. i guess you wont read this post cos, i bet you wont remember my link. well, i shall stop here. tissues, anyone? :"(

Labels: catch me when i fall

Sunday, April 25, 2010

- Sunday, April 25, 2010

HI *WAVES*. i`m starting to enjoy life now.
with boyf♥, babyg's, bestfriends, family, and everything la ;D
i changed my numbeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer. nak? ask me okay :DDDD
i`m currently addicted to this song boyf send me. die yg nyanyi.
beeeen hearing it over and over again! hahaha, dah gile ey member kat sini. xD
uhhhhhhhhhh okay, so this is whut happpenn tday, 25thApr.
i bangun pagi, check phn, aleh2 ade 3 missed calls from boyf.
aluhai, sorrrry sayang, xD. i tunggu you message/call sampai tertdooo tauuu.
penaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat sgat! (: , heh, sorrrraye love.
abeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, mandi-ed, on lapppy, check2 boyf online, die call pakai niey msn
abey aku machiam jakon giler tauuuuu didnt knw th lapy boley dgr suare. hehhhh,
so talked t him, abey adik2 join bbl skaly. abei niey boboy, asik nyanyi lgu 'we are th world'
hahahaha, webcam-ed and talked. hahahahahaha.
i told boyf i nak beli burung& jage! hahaha, xD. kaykay, maken hari, maken merepek eh aku!
dahdah, penaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat.
mcm malas plak nak blog. anyway, besok school ):
my d-darling duck is not coming cos she's sick/fever. (jangkit mataey die! hahahahaa). get weeeellll soooon yer sayang!
hahahaha, aluhaaaaaaaaaaaaaai. besok cume ade soffffy(my part-time scandalsxzc) and bestfr je kat bio classsssss. mati jgak aku giniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
skrg da tkle message si boyf♥. kesian billl da meletop ):

hehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i`ll just wait for him to text lahsxcz giniiii.

hehehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~. bi, cpat cpat kaalah, so tht you cn talk to me.

IRYNDUYOU♥. HAHAHAHAXDC:

Labels: Trust♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

- Sunday, April 25, 2010

TO NANA:

IF U-KISSSS ARE COMING TO SG. YOU GO WIMMMME.! I AM SO GONNNA STALK DONGHGO FOR HYS SIGNATURE. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHHAXD. AHHHH, BESTNYE!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Friday, April 23, 2010

- Friday, April 23, 2010

i`m supposed to unds. but who`s gnna unds me? )':
i`mcryingdeepinsidebutdoyouknow?

Thursday, April 22, 2010

- Thursday, April 22, 2010

'bi, no matter where you are, TAKECARE OF YOURSELF, cos you know i lov you.' )':
bi, reply me. im fvcking worried here. only god knows how i feeeeel.
my jantung like want to tercabot sia now!
bi reply me now. bi, please? )':
i`m worried, really worried y'knw )':
are you okay? where are you?
my tears are starting to flow.
i`m worried sick, temperature`s running high.
i misss you )':
my 22ndApril boyf,
i dont wnna lose you, please?
)':

Labels: KIDLOVE

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

- Wednesday, April 21, 2010

'pulangkan cinta hatyku. hentikanlah menyakitiku'
hahahahahah, xD. whateverrrrrr la eyyyyyyyy! aku sungguhhhhh penattttttttttttt.
these few days i`ve beeeeen cranky and i found out that i cant control it or stop it from happening.
beeeeen blowing up & becoming much more sensitive sia. i dont know what's wrong wiimmmeee.
shav says im IRRITATING. (i didnt think she was joking).
hey, i was just putting a small piece of paper in your hair.
if you do that to me also i`ll just shush and have i ever said that you're IRITATING?
helll no okay.
but what in the world sia, i was just playing a fool and you DESTROYED my "happy" mood.
you may think 'what the hell sia this girl. like that also angry, I NOT ANGRY KAY.
im just sensitive. got it?! who the fish likes it when you are being called irrits.
i dont like sia. serious. i tried to show you hints that im hurt. but i think you IGNORED.
dah lah, i lazy wanna write about you here. i`ll just find some other way to vent out my anger.
; pssssst to our dearest bitch, better watch what you have to say okay. babyg aku dah susah susah carikkan kau org tuk belikan kau nye barang. kau nak paitau die. psl aku da ngamok abei kau nak peng name babyg aku so that i wont get ff-ed up. you're wrong kay. way wrong. messing with the wrong type of person. here she is trying to quit. there you are influencing her back. ape pehy kwan sia kau. you call yourself a friend? go to the mirror, loook at yourself hundred times. ask yourself ah. how many times kau buat cite psl org? abei nak lepas gtu aje? hold on kay bitch. there's alot more i wanna say bout you. but, i should do it infront of your face. how i wish i could just stand infront of your face and slap you right at your face. but my babyg's dont let me do that. wowwwwwww, lucky i have patience. sooner or later. i`m gonna blow up with a slap on your face. so, watch out kay. tak gune pehy ppn. kau kate niey kwan? JALAN SUDA.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

- Tuesday, April 20, 2010

yesssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
finnnallyyyy, i`m freeeeeeeeeeeeeee again.
like a bird out of the cage.
after days of persuading, i finally made it.
isnt it like super awesome!
i (heartshape) myself. hahahahahaa.
i wat to private my blog sooooon, should i?
xoxo.

Monday, April 19, 2010

- Monday, April 19, 2010

Dont you take chances, you might feeeel the pain.

Dont you love in vain, love wont set you freee.

I could stand by the side, watch this life pass me by,

So un-happy but safe as could be.

- Happy, Leona lewis.

i`m tired. and i have NO mood to update. haha, xD.
tooo bad, wait up uh. anyway, will be privating my blog sooon~.
cossssssssssssssss i dont want kepo-chi's to go around spreading to people bout what i type.
no life peh LOSER =.='
k, bye~

Sunday, April 18, 2010

- Sunday, April 18, 2010

uh, whut.

whats the point of saying you care but you actually dont.

so, this is all part of your i-show-i-care-cos-i-want-you-back trick.

well, you know i`m not gonnna fall for it anyway.

so, have fun messaging me cos i aint gonna topup so sooon.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHASC:

i feeeeeeeeeeel so, WOAH-ED.

people are messaging but i cant reply. told you a thousand times prepaid low,

(well not a thousand but nearly la~) HAHAHAS.

stilll dont want to listen. HAHA, who's at fault now?

NEH-NEH-NI-PU-PU. have fun finding me. cos you know you cant! haha,

lets just say, if the special he messaged me, i`ll run down to the shop at topup at the moment,.

but, on second thought, he wont, cosssssssssssss he's busy with he's maid-looking like (im not saying i look awesome, but babyg's and bestfriend and friends thought that that girl you're dating looks like one kazanasxdc maid.)girlfriend.

(I KNOW IM EVIL) but, this is my blog what. i got every rights to type whatever shit i feeel like typing. hahahaha,

i feeeeeeel AWESOME, and i dont know whats wrong wimme.

HAHAHA, have fun reading my blog now. cos sooon, i'll be super assss shxt busy and i wont have the time to update. so sorrry yeahs. wht do you except, with stupid mid-years coming sooon, and sports heats around the corner. i`ll D-I-E . DIE sooon! HAHAHAHAXDC:

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, and wannna know what. since my prepaid is low, im not contacting anyone.

NAH-NO ONE~. and i`m happy with it. (kinda not, but i`m trying to)

HAHAHAHAHA. i`m not gonnna topup until someone makes me topup. hehhhhhhhhhhhh!

kaykaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~.

wannnna get bathe-d/ i STINK BIG TIME. (wide wide smile). HAHAHAHAA. BUT I STILL LOVE MYSELF.

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, BYE (:

Labels: NOTANOTHER

Saturday, April 17, 2010

- Saturday, April 17, 2010

"ku hidup dengan siapa
ku tak tau kau siapa
kau kekasihku
tetapi orang laen bagiku."

that song explains it all. everytime i wanna tell you how i felt, i was always ignored. its the best thing to do. end it all here. dont find me anymore. i dont wish to be with you, know you anymore. youre selfish always think of yourself before me. you hardly think of me goodbye ex,

Labels: nothing was worth the risk

Friday, April 16, 2010

- Friday, April 16, 2010

for all i care, blame me all you want okay. i am SICK and TIRED of alll your lame excuses everytime i ask you for time off/BREAK. here you go telling me how much i meant to you. please la, dont say it if you dont even mean anything. i am darn pissed offf with you okay. thats it. i tolerate alot already. all your bloody silent treatments and so on. when i try to tell you, you tell me to shush. what the hell la. now you trying to say im giving you alasans not to meet. when i myself not feeeling well. wake up uh wake up. what have you ever done for me? NOTHING. except for giving me four messages per day. thats LAME okay. i never had a boyfr so terok like this. or even worse. you didnt even text me the whole of yesterday. so, this is how you treat your 'girlfriend'. i seriously wnnna breakup. but everytime i ask, everytime you'll try to get away with it. have you ever spared a thought on me, have you ever care on asking me about my day? NO. and when i ask you the same question, you said, 'i igt you pe. kalau i tk igt, i tkkn text you.' oh, so you are trying to say, you remember me for four mintues aje, that explains your four messages per day. including NO phone calls, IGNORING me at msn. asl seh? takot pe org tau aku 'mataey' kau. i really dont know what to do. prepaid aku da mampos, so have fun texting me. ihateyousofvckingmuch, guys like you DONT deserve second chances.

Labels: YOUALWAYSPUTYOURSELFFIRST

- Friday, April 16, 2010

my blog looks like a complete asshole. i know. but who cares, its my blog anyway. hahas. hmm, today sucks. why? cos im down with fever and i dont have the usual havoc mood in class. and im upset about other stuffs tooo. i tried cheering myself up. [jumping, etc] but it didnt work. hate it hate it hate it! so, after school went to macd, get my 70cents ice creaam, top-ed up my prepaid. $2 je. im broke kay broke. abeyyyy pastu went home with aly. on the way, aku nmpk zai. die dressss up machiam old man sia. HAHAXD. instead of going there for a hug. i went the longer way. so i could avoid him/ he couldnt seee me. HAHAHXD. jahatnye anak bapak ni! so, who cares. anyway, he messaged me. here it goes.
zai: lol, was that you?
me: huh? what? wheere?
zai: at interchange. were you with alysha?
me: no i was with shaveta. HAHAXD. (padehal we jalan together sia. its only that aku jalan depan sket. hahahahahahaha. bodoh)
zai: oh, okay then. seeeyou soon.
me: (dalam haty, sape nak jumpe kau sibot~ HAHAHXD)
yeah, so, thats it. anyway, im fighting with boyfriend. i dont like it kay. i seriously dont. i dont even know whetther i shud call you that. you seee, you DONT really have time for me. i belong to your if-i-got-time-then-i-message-you category. y'knw. i dont like that feeeling. who in the world loves to be treated like that. i asked you for break. why didnt you let me go? you told me you love me, you wnna lastlong. but now? you dont really show me you love me. i feeel like a girl who's feelings are being played around. by YOU. this is why i had second thoughts of accepting your patch in the first place. but then i just ignored my feeelings and give you a second chance. i regret y'knw. if only i didnt accept your patch in the first place and stayed single, i may lead a happy life. but now with you. you're always making me sad, without fail. tak pernah aku senyom pasal kau. tak pernah, after we patched, i really regret making that choice. haish. i dont know whats gonna happen next. god, please gimme the strength to go thru all this. amin. okay la, i shall stop here. dead tired. i wanna sleeeeeeeeeeep. XOXO.

Labels: IHATEBEINGINTHISPOSTITON

Thursday, April 15, 2010

- Thursday, April 15, 2010

Kamu, Dia, Aku.

(you, her, me)

HAHAHAHAXD. haluuuuuuuu. its eight thirty pm, and im feeeling sleeeeepy. whywhywhy? cos im dead tired laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! XD. uh, sch waas awesome tday. was laughing my asss off for two periods non-stop. eng&maths. these kecoh people la, sooooo the funny. laugh bout random things. yadayadayada. after sch, got napha. DEADDOOOMED. i dont know where i suddenly got all the energy to do napha without feeeling tired. HAHAXD. i so bangggge siul, i passed all except for the stupid standing broad jump. i can only jump straight siul. cannot jump forward. soooooo pissed laaaaa. nabuey teng teng. nevermind. haha. at least i passs all my other four stations(i wanted to type systems, wtheck? ;P). AWESOME(Y). ilovemyself. hahaha. i self loved tooo much y'knw. okaaaaaaaaaaay. aft tht went to mac. grabbbbed icecreams and gerak-ed to simei cos my babyg wnna meet her mataey. hahas. skip some parts. then we ended up at block 200plus. i was gonna tear up, but i stayed strong. haiyassssssssssssssssss. sedeh tau akuuu. that block got lots of memories tau. but, i haveta rmb, die da move on. maybe if he was meant for me, he'll come back. god-willing. amin. pray for me kay people. pray real hard that he'll come back to me. pretty please yeh! hahahs. anyway, im so happy tday. i feeel awesome. cos tday, bestfr came late. lucky we reached sch in time. abey, me and sufian are back on track. thankggod. so, he called aly. and then soffy passed the phone to me. so, this is what happen.

sufian: siti, eh. thanks eh, for the birthday wish. aku tak sangke kau nak tules kat card tu.

me; *shocked, mcm nak nanges pon ade*. youre welcome uh. uhhhhhh....
IM SORRY (both of us said it at the same time)

sufian: (he sounded like he wnna cry. but he's strong) aku salah jugak, psal hal ni.

me: aku pon nak sorry ah. aku mcm lanchiaoey, abey tak trust kau. aku mintak maaf *nak nanges*

sufian: dah, takpe. aku pon salah jgak. kau tau kan aku cpt marah
me:yeahhh, i do. and happy birthday tau!

*passs the phone to aly*

KIMAK, SUMPAH AKU MCM NAK NANGES. although we had a BAD fight. i still respect him. hahas. aku nak ckap thanks ah kat kau. kalau bkan psl kau. aku takkan tau prngai zai yg betol. aku maseh kene tipu, aku maseh melalak mcm org gile. and psl karl jgak. time part aku dah lost hope of finding he's contact. you helped me, find he's msn. although bnyk contacts kt msn kau. abey kau smpi kene carikkkk satu2. HAHA. thanks ah. aku tkkn lupe sia. kwan mcm kau susah dpat la sia. hahahaha. sumpa aku terkejot ble kau ckap sorry.HAHAXDC: , andddddd, HAPPYBIRTHDAY, SUFFY :D

kaylaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, aku nak blaja ni. besok test siol.

k, will update sooonnnnnn~(L). xoxo, DEA.

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Monday, April 12, 2010

- Monday, April 12, 2010

hi! hahaha. there's definately a lot to share with you bloggy. but as y'knw, im so the pemalas, so, i'll summarize it up kay. HAHAHXD. my life changed and so on. soooooooooo, let sstart with i'm back on track with my dearest ex boyf which is now my 17April boyf. hahaha, nak tau sape? pandai2 caryk kay. babygirls ajehhh yg tau sapeh. school's beeen bitcher as always. with teacher nagging at me&friends day in and out. mcm tak penat2 gytu. hehhhhh. aku yg dgr penat liaooooooooooo. sooooooooooo, me and babygirls are getting closer and closer everyday. we can even hear our heartbeats. cheyxcd. mepekkkkkkkkkkkkkk~. muahahaha XD. i hate tmr. whyyy? cos got physicaleducation. jibye! ni yg tk suke ni, ni yg tk suke! MUSIBOT HARAMXSC. uhhhhh, and y'knw wht. that A guy messaged me again siul. this time merepek punye. he said, 'i think my current mataey better than you.' then i sayyyy, 'oh yer? bagus la tu. fyi, i found a way betterr replacement eh. kerek betul~. get a life'. HAHASXD. cant believe i said that. im so awesome. ckap psl awesome. si boyfriend tauuuuuu tu lagu fave aku. idk how. stalker eh bi! ahahaha. nabueychaocheeebyejibyejibyejibye. hahahasxc. uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, nowwwwwww i neeed to divide my lunch money wisely. so, i got $5 per day. $2 for prepaid, $2 or less for makan, $1 to save. save for what? FOR THE BOOK, I REMEMBER YOU. jibye. its $35. so, i haveta wait till like 35days=1month plus to get the boook. nabuey.! grhsx. kay lah, off to sleeep. GOODNIGHTS. actaully not literally sleeep. i've gotta a date on the tveee with boyf, we both watch spongebob tgd. heh, k, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ :D

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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

- Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Ayyyyyyy Yaw, :D, whatsdxzczup?

kk, dah start merepek~. MUAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA:D

IMSO BORED. and babygirl told me to update blog, so, im doing it now. say what?

" THANKYOU DEA! ". muahahaha. today's pe was frigging asssshxt un-awesome.

whyy? cos kena do inclined pull ups(buat 3 da pengsan), and some jumping(mampus. aku da la pendek!) abeh kene LARI! pmk! geraaaaaaaaaaaaam siut. kalau 2 rounds takpe. ni 3 rounds. aku lari cm budak bodoh sia. gile punye lari. sweating mcm babi siak. abeh pas pe, ade cd,eng,hist. i keeeep on smellling myself sia. bau tak sedap, sumpah! hahaha!~. naseb aly spraykan perfume die. HAHAHXD. abeyyy niey evil girl, tangan tak tau diam2, die gy bogelkan water bottle die, abeh tu wrapper die wrapwrap abeh kacau aku ngn tu bende. geli siut. aku nak move chair, die gi tarik. (ni da mcm kes org nak kene rape) HAHAHAHAXD. naseb last period, kalau tak. dah lame da aku mampus kat situu! HAHAHA:D. anywayyyy, ade orang kenek speak siul ngan aly. SEDAP SIA AKU TGOK. air liur sampai ter-keluwa. MUAHAHAHA:D. and thennn, after schoool went to change to class teee. abeyyyy, buy my prepaid, *YEAY, JUMPS UPDOWN*, abehhhh temankan si sofia makan MacD. aku tgok boleh migrane sia. haha. after that went home cos me&aly nak makan kat uma. MUAHAHA. aku lapar gile sia. mcm vacuuummm sia. NYEAHAHAH:D. KK, DAH~. psssst, im no longer crying over him. DEA KAN STRONG! (bestfriend punye line~. sorrry i pinjam! HAHA). seeeing him happy with someone else makes me happy tooo. glad he can move on easily. but me? i guesss i'll just say single. had enough of guys babehhhh~. MUAHAHAHAHA:D. i gaven up on relationships, i swear. hahaha. i just lost the intrest. lepas kene busted ngan him, tros taknak lagi uh. for what nak saketkan hati aku lgi. "dont care about him la. you'll find somebody who loves you for who you are."(like whut poodle say). i hope so~. AMIN. hahahahah~. Kay la, i want to watch tveeeee. tired pulak seee the comp~. HAHAHA. OKAY, BYEBYE, GOODNIGHTSXSZC. XOXO, :D

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

- Sunday, April 04, 2010

sorrrry bloggggy! i left you deaaaaaaaaaaaad.

i just dont have the frigging moood to updateeeeeeeeeee~!

now everyone is sleeeeping, except for me. why? cos im down with dirrea(howeveryouspellit).

10 times of going to the toilet. or maybe MORE.

hehhhhhhh, anyway, i made up my mind. im gonnna frigging let him go. (Y) like, seriously.

what's the point of hanging on, when there's no hope we'll be back on track.

"skrng aku bkan ryndu/sayang kau. AKU BENCI~." MUAHAHAHAHAXSZ

lagiponnnnn, die dah de mataey. so, gooodluck. i can sense that karma will get back to you. SLOWLY. hahaha. i dont wnna take revenge. i just want karma to happpen.

and i strongly believe it will. so, ghudluck boy, TAK SABAR AKU~.

HAHAHXD, yoooooooi, prepaid aku tgh low la siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal.

geramnye! hahahahaha. i think (insertnameheresendiri) is angry wimme.

os, i tertdo and forget to calll him. heh, i txted him 30mins ago. tpy tak reply.

tdo la tuuuuuuuuuuuuu~. muahahahaha. hujan ah sia! syiok.

terigt sia time kecik2 maen hujan ngan si zak, sampai terjatoh~. hahahaha. soyaaal~.

IMISSSSMDREZASYAH~. so much! come back and visit me kay couzzzzzziiieeee~.

hahaha, IMISSSMYBABYG'S. hope they had fun yesterday. hahahaahahahaXD.

i was browsing thru my messages when i found one funny one.

he; ehk soyal laaaaaaaaa. gi move on suda. jantan cm diyer tak hidop lame tau you!

me; asal pulark? hahahaha. tgh nak move on. tpy susah liaosxdzc~

he; psal i bunoh die. muahahahah! move on suda you! nanti besok kite pegi ruma die, tuang paint!

me; hahaha. tailong pe? HAHAXD. okay ah, set bro~. hahaahahahaha.

gile pehy laki. tak abes2 nak buat aku ketawe XD.

bnyk pulak eh aku nak ckap nary~. MUAHAHAHAHXD.

today going visiting at mom's sideeeeeeeeeeeee. haiyeeeeeeeeer.

abey pastu taktau nak gi ne.

; psssssssssst mom! cpat siket bangon. aku LAPAR ni. aku dah ketok2 pon takde effect. kesiannnye aku! MUAHAHAHAHAXD.

conclusion at the end of the day,

- I DONT NEED A BOYFRIEND TO MAKE ME HAPPY. i just neeed my babygirls, friends and myself. cynte dah tak bermakne ape2 lgi. HUAHAHAHXD. single bestttttttttttttttt!

everything happens for a reason, i'll just haveta find mine.

XOXO, DEA.

offf to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep~

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