Sometimes you don't realise that your actions are really hurtful. You want to do something right but it's wrong.

You told me you don't want me to put on high hopes by texting me and treating me like a 'girlfriend' because you're unsure of your feelings and you don't want to hurt me. So you stopped saying 'sweet' things to me, texting me during your free time, you hardly have time for me, you stopped doing the things like you used to do a few days back. The problem is.....you did gave me hopes and suddenly you stopped. AND GUESS WHAT. YES, I'm hurt. But i'm a coward. I didn't have the guts to tell you straight in the face that I AM DAMN BLOODY HURT BY WHAT HAPPENED. Instead, I act like a stupid dumb asshole and suck it all in. Pretend like nothing happened and yeah.

When deep inside, i'm screaming, crying, kicking, punching, dying and all the horrible/miserable words you could think of.

I wish you knew how exactly I felt.

I wish you would stop being so selfish and start sparing a thought for me. Treat me like I exist

Most of all, I wish you would care.

I missed the good old times. When we could like sing aloud and don't care about what people say. I miss the times that you would hug me tight when i'm cold. I missed those calls, sweet texts. I miss listening to your voice. I miss your lame jokes. I MISS YOU IDIOT.

For now, i'm just going with the flow. Apparently, that's the best thing to do now.

Ps, ITSUCKSTOREADYOURTWEETSANDKNOWTHINGSTHATIDON'TWANTTOKNOW.
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Oh and yes, O LEVEL RESULTS IN ON THURSDAY. KILL ME. REALLY. KILL ME. I am so damn nervous now. SIGH:(

Anyway, I went for Temasek Poly's Open House && Ngee Ann Poly's Open House with sya, dorc, sof and miaowen.

IT WAS AWESOME BUT I'M DEAD TIRED. GONN HEAD TO BED NAO SINCE I'M GOING FOR RP'S OPEN HOUSE TOMORROW. LOOKING FORWARD TO SPEND THE DAY WITH LE BESTIE TOMORROW :D.

GOODNIGHT XOXO.