Since i'm having some free time after my test, I thought I should update this dusty *coughs* blog of mine. Muahahahahaha.

Hey guys! Sorry for not updating for quite a number of days. Been quite busy with projects and tests lately. My everyday schedule sucks. I'm not just having submissions but test every week on top of the ending-late schedule. SIGHS. I'm complaining too much ain't I? Yeah, I know. But whatever it is. I believe Allah swt put me in this course for a reason. I believe he knows I can succeed here, that's why he made the decision for me to be one of the lucky 60 people in this course. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy me:D. So, I shall make the best out of it. Hopefully. I find that my computer skills sucks and I really REALLY need to brush up on it. Mwehehe:D. 

Haven't I told you that i'm blessed for the people around me, always encouraging and motivating me to do my best. Especially my boyfriend. HAHAHAHA, well. I'm not telling you a lie or whatnot ah but he is the number one motivator for me. I don't know how will I survive this shit without him. This stress level is even worse than the O levels man! Bleah, Tbh, at first, I thought I wouldn't make it through this semester, I will end up failing every single shit but NO. I did not, I threw away all those "lousy" thoughts and I made the best out of it. But really, without the support of friends, family and boyprend, I don't think I will sustain any longer here. Whenever I feel like giving up, I remind myself of my ultimate goal. To graduate from TP with a decent GPA that will get me to a good company with a good job and a good pay so I can contribute back to my parents. My parents, the ultimate reason why i'm striving for my hardest everyday. 

Okay, time for next class. I shall update again when I have the time. 
p/s: THERE'S SILAT TML. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY OMG. HAHAHAH! :D

Second blog post for the day because semangat dea is semangat! Ceh, semangat means motivated just in case you don't know. Teehees.

So i'm back home and since today is a FRIDAY, I shall take the time to blog about my life. Kekekeke.

First things first, I'll like to give thanks to my tash baby for changing my tumblr skin. NOW IT LOOKS SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL I CAN VISIT IT EVERYDAY WITH A DAMN SMILE ON MY FACE. HAHAHAHAHA. Here's a snapshot of it. Anyway, alternatively, you can visit www.nadiahxo.tumblr.com and FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR. Thanks, mwah*



So basically, you know that the EC shit is going on and idk why am I not feeling happy/excited. Some people told me to be grateful and blessed to have someone EC-ing on me. BUT..........I can't hide my feelings ok. I FEEL SO FREAKED OUT AND YEAH. Yeah some people may think that i'm crazy or ungrateful and stuff BUT the truth is.................................i'm just scared ok. I can't control how I feel. If my first emotion is scared, what can I do. I can't just tell myself ' EH JANGAN TAKUT LA(Eh, dont be scared la)' or something like that because I DON'T CONTROL WHAT I FEEL OK. PSHT.

Moving on, I would like to dedicate this post to whoever it may concern,
I'm not trying to be rude or whatnot but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't be merepek by judging me based on what I felt. The feelings and emotions and reactions that came out of me are truly TRUE and I am not faking any of it. Shocked+scared+freaked out is a REAL emotion, I am not faking it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE. WHY CAN'T I HAVE THE DAMN FREEDOM OF FEELING WHAT I FEEL. Am I like living under you or what? I AM NOT YOUR DAMN SLAVE OK. I DON'T NEED TO SEEK YOUR PERMISSION TO FEEL WHATEVER I WANT TO FEEL. ANYWAY THE ONE FEELING ALL THIS SHIT IS ME NOT YOU OK.

I am so beyond pissed. I shall blog again when I have the mood to.

CARC submission is coming. Psht. KILL ME.

Okay goodnight babies.
XOXO.

ah yes, current song playing in my mind: Lego House-Ed Sheeran,


Yada yada yada GOOD MORNING. Hahahaha, i'm currently having the boring-est period of my life now, Human Computer Interaction.. Idk man, idk why are we even taking this module. This module is something like designing things and evaluate things. Sounds more like a design course like? Well, maybe it is. A design course in a computer course. Get it? HAHAHAHA, forget it ah. I know I don't make sense. Well, I don't make sense most of the time. HAHAH.

So yes, CARC Project submission is like this week and hopefully my geng can pull this shit off with a 'BANG'. HAHAHAHA, I know I wasn't much of a help for this project but I tried helping in all that I can help. Hehehe, yeay.

Ah, i'm feeling so tired and sleepy and I feel like i'm missing out on sleep. Hahahaha. BLLEAHSZXXZSIADFIArawjdsoeanfioeadkdiwjdidoa0jfo. I NEED SLEEP. Haahahaha.

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Time check : 3.22pm and guess who's in the library doing project with her mates? YES YOU GOT THAT RIGHT. IT'S ME. HAHAHAHHAHAA.



Ah, i'm starting to get really suspicious or maybe curious about this tpconfessions thing. Seriously, it's been going on for three days edi. Yesterday my girl found out about that tweet when she was randomly going thru twitter. Then, the tweet just keeps coming and coming. And today there was a new tweet. OMG. I am not making it a big deal but..........whoever you are, if you want to be my friend......you can always come up to me and say HELLO. Hehehe, i'm that friendly y'knw. AND IF YOU ARE READING THIS.....PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SAY HI TO ME THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE ME SO I KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I CAN END THIS CURIOSITY INSIDE OF ME. HAHAHAHAHA.

Anyway here's some screenshots for you, if you don't have any idea on what i'm talking about:D

 her blog. 😜 Lets make it short, sweet and simple. Hehehe. Ok first and foremost, i love her so much! She have been a wonderful and awesome girlfriend :D She is annoying(sometimes only) but i still love her <3. Hehehe

Hey hello and hi there. 


Whoa i'm finally done revising for my Cmath1 class test. I'm kinda worried now. Because I don't really know what to focus on. The questions are somehow changing every year and I can't really expect it to be the same as the past year papers. SIGHPIE. So sad sad, sighzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. And you wanna know what's more sad. When you open the Cmaths2 book to do your tutorial and suddenly.......................BAM. You don't even know how to do any of the questions there. NOT EVEN A SINGLE QUESTION. ARGH. -.-
Okay it's not the time to give up. Nope, not yet, not now nope no no no no. 


I HAVE TO BE STRONG OMG. Because that's the only choice I have.
I love this course, I do. I worked so hard for the whole of my sec 5 year to earn myself the reward of getting into this course. So, I CANNOT GIVE UP. NO GIVING UP. I am going to try my hardest to sustain myself from all these tough subjects. Okay, So like what one of my friend say. Don't give up because of one subject. Yes, I'm not giving up BUT i'm having a really HUGE trouble trying to understand the concepts and such. I am so scared of failing/not doing well. Yeah, people always say "Kau pandai pe", "Step bodoh". HAHAHAHAHAHA, the truth is........I am not smart. I actually study really hard to get the results that I got. You have no idea how much pain/stress/anger/heartache I go through everyday, doing the same old shitz and listening to the same old e-lectures just to make sure that I get that topic right. It is such a pain. Some people can understand it when the lecturer teach them but me.........I'm the total opposite. I don't understand on the spot. I have to go home, re-call what the lecturer says and try to use it to help myself and guide myself to study. I can tell you, it's not an easy thing for me. Really. 

Okay, so....................................today's pretty good, I guess. Everything's been good, so far. I haven't had any problems for the day. Went to solat with my girl during break and I'm so proud of her ok! She's not those people who always pray all her life. She recently just started to re-learn how to pray and I must say that I really admire her effort in doing so. GOOD JOB SISTAH! ZUHUR AGAIN OK TMR:B. But this time we have to go to  school of AS really fast! Hahahaha.



My boyfriend is an annoying piece of shit. LOOK WHAT HE'S DONE TO MY LAPTOP. HE PUT ONE HUGE NOTE THERE SAYING "IZZAD HASSAN IS AWESOME" AND "I LOVE IZZAD HASSAN" HAHAHAHAHAHA. YAH THANKS B FOR BLOCKING ALL MY OTHER NOTES. PSHT. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH K TIAK TIAK BOY.

AND I THINK IZZAD HASSAN HAS GOT HIMSELF A FAN OMG. THIS IS SO CREEPY I WONDER WHO IS BEHIND ALL THIS. 
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA OKAY, I SHALL PACK MY BAG AND GET READY FOR TOMO. 
I HOPE TOMO'S GONNA BE  BETTER THAN TODAY.

TILL THEN, XOXO.

SELAMAT BERPUASA GUYS! :*

Guess who's having the boring-est lesson in her life right now?
HAHAHAHA, you guessed right. It's ME ME ME. Ah, first lesson of the day and i'm feeling so bored edi.

Anyways, HAPPY FIRST DAY OF PUASA! Yay! What did y'all have for sahur? Hahaha, I had cracker oats plus hot tea. Heheheh yey yey! Quite little huh? Yeap, I can't really eat much in the morning. So I have to eat a little and sustain a bit. Yesterday I gave terawih a miss because I realised that I had truckloads of homeworks and revision to do. Hopefully, I can go terawih today. Hahaha! :D.

Okay so it's wednesday, I HATE WEDNESDAYS. The lessons are damn boring. Especially the first lesson of the day, which is like..............NOW. HATE HCI HATE HCI HATE HCI HATE HCI HATE HCI. Psht, after this is CMSK. HATE CMSK HATE CMSK HATE CMSK HATE CMSK.

So, I just logged in to twitter like ard 5 minutes ago and I see like so many people tweeting about being hungry and stuffs and i'm like.................I'm just sleepy bro. HAAHAHA.

Okay bye.

Since I can't sleep, I shall type a blog post! HAHAHA.


Hi earthlings! Wa-laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Okay wrong emotion! Maybe, Whaaaaazuppppppppppp?! HAHA!
Okay hello and hi there! Whoa you have no freaking idea how many drafts I made before posting this one! I always feel like blogging and then when I typed out one whole chunk of stuffs to blog, I just don't feel like publishing it, HAHAHAHAHA. Sigh, I know I merepek la okay! Well, That's just meh.



I would like to start of by saying "NOBODY IS FREAKING PERFECT OK". 
I feel so annoyed when someone comes up to me and tell me "eh, you have grammar/spelling errors in your text/post/whatnot". IF YOU ARE TELLING ME FOR ONE/TWO TIMES....I CAN TAKE IT BUT IF YOU ARE CORRECTING ME 24/7, YOU ARE REALLY ASKING FOR IT. Psht. I feel so annoyed okay, TELL ME WHICH INDIVIDUAL WON'T BE SO FURIOUS IF YOU KEEP TELLING THEM THEIR GRAMMAR/SPELLING MISTAKE. YOU KNOW MY ENGLISH IS ALREADY A C6 SO WHAT DO YOU EXPECT OF ME? 

Okay, sorry for venting my anger in the paragraph above. Well, I'm just pissed. Idk why people like to spot other people's mistakes. Sometimes I can just laugh, smile and joke about it but if you really see the inside of me....you will know. Behind those laughs are actually sadness and tears. I may always be the "happy-go-lucky" kind of girl, hyperactive and always creating a conversation with people. BUT what you don't see is the tears I cried, the stress I face, the amount of anger I inhale and stuffs like that. Well, they say the happiest people are the scariest because one day when the blow up, the only expression that would come out of them is....ANGER and maybe some sadness. They inhale too much all the time that it is actually silently killing them on the inside. 

Bleah, okay so screw whatever I just typed above. 


So yesterday was my 5th with my bbboyfriend. Kekekeke! Time really flies when we're having fun right? Well, not really fun. I'm glad that we still make time for each other despite our busy schedule everyday. Okay maybe not 'out busy schedule', maybe its just ME. I'm so dead busy these days. School, silat, family and more school. I find that sometimes I don't even have time for myself. I really miss those days when 'projects' were just simple presentation slides based on information you can find on your notes/textbooks. Yeah, so back to the topic. I'm really blessed to have someone to put up with my constant mood swings, my temperamental attitude, my annoyingness, my naggings, my everyday complaints. Also, someone to be my pillar of strength, someone who believes in me when I don't even believe in myself. Someone to give me hope when I feel like all hope is gone. I'm really blessed to have you baby. Really. I swear I can't imagine being with anyone else in this world, other than you. You always tell me about how you are a bad boyfriend and how you disappoint me at times. Well, every relationship goes through fights, dramas and stuffs. Those are actually tests given to us to see if we are strong enough to face it or if we are going to give up this love. I'm really grateful to still have you in my life even though I may be such a pain in the ass sometimes. SOMETIMES JE. Hahaha. Anyway, you're not a bad boyfriend ok! YOU'RE A GOOD ONE, AN AWESOME BOYFRIEND I MUST SAY. I'm not easy to handle but you've prove to me that you CAN handle my behaviours and accept my flaws. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TIAK TIAK BOY! 

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Okay till here then. 
I KNOW MY POSTS ARE BORING SHITZ. 

BUT I LOVE Y'ALL FOR READING MY BLOG.

OKAY GOODNIGHT READERS. 

LOVE Y'ALL.

MWAH*

NADIAHXO.