Second blog post for the day because semangat dea is semangat! Ceh, semangat means motivated just in case you don't know. Teehees.

So i'm back home and since today is a FRIDAY, I shall take the time to blog about my life. Kekekeke.

First things first, I'll like to give thanks to my tash baby for changing my tumblr skin. NOW IT LOOKS SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL I CAN VISIT IT EVERYDAY WITH A DAMN SMILE ON MY FACE. HAHAHAHAHA. Here's a snapshot of it. Anyway, alternatively, you can visit www.nadiahxo.tumblr.com and FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR. Thanks, mwah*



So basically, you know that the EC shit is going on and idk why am I not feeling happy/excited. Some people told me to be grateful and blessed to have someone EC-ing on me. BUT..........I can't hide my feelings ok. I FEEL SO FREAKED OUT AND YEAH. Yeah some people may think that i'm crazy or ungrateful and stuff BUT the truth is.................................i'm just scared ok. I can't control how I feel. If my first emotion is scared, what can I do. I can't just tell myself ' EH JANGAN TAKUT LA(Eh, dont be scared la)' or something like that because I DON'T CONTROL WHAT I FEEL OK. PSHT.

Moving on, I would like to dedicate this post to whoever it may concern,
I'm not trying to be rude or whatnot but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't be merepek by judging me based on what I felt. The feelings and emotions and reactions that came out of me are truly TRUE and I am not faking any of it. Shocked+scared+freaked out is a REAL emotion, I am not faking it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE. WHY CAN'T I HAVE THE DAMN FREEDOM OF FEELING WHAT I FEEL. Am I like living under you or what? I AM NOT YOUR DAMN SLAVE OK. I DON'T NEED TO SEEK YOUR PERMISSION TO FEEL WHATEVER I WANT TO FEEL. ANYWAY THE ONE FEELING ALL THIS SHIT IS ME NOT YOU OK.

I am so beyond pissed. I shall blog again when I have the mood to.

CARC submission is coming. Psht. KILL ME.

Okay goodnight babies.
XOXO.