Pissed.

Let me start by telling you people how ANNOYED and ANGRY I am today. So basically today, I just found out that (insertname) blogged about my friends and I. And i'm kind enough to not mention you name here, in my blog. BECAUSE I DO NOT WISH TO DOWNGRADE OR CAUSE ANY EMBARRASSMENT TO YOU.

Firstly, I would like to say that THANKS FOR MAKING ME, NAT, ZUL AND NAZ POPULAR ON YOUR PAGE. Wow, we are more than honored to get a POST on your blog. WOW THANKS EH THANK YOU SO MUCH. In return, I shall blog about you then. ONE WHOLE F---ING BLOG POST ABOUT YOU:).

I don't know where to start. I am just so pissed like that. I have totally lose all respect towards you ok. GUYS PLEASE, IF YOU EVER HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MY CLIQUE&I, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE FOR GODS SAKE CONFRONT US INSTEAD OF JUST RANTING ABOUT US ON YOUR BLOG. You have a problem with us, SETTLE IT WITH US. You don't have to f---ing type it on your blog and let the world see how BAD we are.

I'm not saying my clique&I are perfect like that, we have our flaws too.
EH WHAT THE FUCK LA DOG. You said you couldn't trust because Nat&I posted a picture of the clique on our instagram. EH SIAL LA, HOW OLD ARE YOU AGAIN? 13? 12? Grow up la. The reason why we didn't ask you is simple. WE ARE TIRED OF REJECTION. We asked you out for every single outing but did you ever come? NO. Iftar, study, lunch, you name it. NO you are always busy la what la this la that la. SO MANY REASONS. And it all brings down to two letters, N O. So after many rejections, do you think that we should invite you anymore? NO.

Anyway we aren't that close in school ANYMORE. Let me make things clear. YOU CHOSE TO WALK OUT OF OUR LIVES NOT US. You ignored us in school, skipped lessons, stay away from us in tutorials, sometimes you didn't even bother to talk to any of us in school. Did you mention that in your blog? NO. I can't believe you actually said we betrayed your trust. Is it wrong to just spend the day, 4 of us? Is it? We didn't isolate you, YOU ISOLATED YOURSELF LONG TIME AGO YOU LITTLE BITCH. You hate us? YOU THINK WE FUCKING CARE. We gave up on you long time bro. IF WE AREN'T YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS WE WOULDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU SKIPPING PROGRAMMING LESSONS, SKIPPING CARC LESSONS, WE WOULDNT EVEN BOTHER TEXTING YOU AND PERSUADING YOU TO COME FOR FUCKING LESSONS. Now just because of a fucking picnic, you FORGOT all that. COME ON LA SIA. You regret knowing us? WE DON'T. We take YOU as a lesson and try to learn something good out of it. OH YEAH SO YOU LABELED US "BUSTEDS" WOW. THESE BUSTEDS ARE THE ONE WHO HELPED YOU IN YOUR FUCKING POLY LIFE LAH EH.

I'M TELLING YOU, IF YOU DON'T CHANGE YOUR BLOODY ATTITUDE, NOBODY IS EVER GOING TO STAY FRIENDS WITH YOU FOR LONG.

WOW I DIDN'T KNOW HAPPY PICNIC PICTURES MEANS OUR TRUE COLOURS ARE REVEALED.

I AM REALLY SHOCKED AH REALLY AH.

Okay enough.

And DON'T SAY I'M A COWARD BY BLOGGING AH. I TEXTED YOU STRAIGHT AT YOUR MOBILE. IF YOU DARE WRITE A BLOG POST ABOUT MY FRIENDS&I WITHOUT REPLYING MY TEXT OR NAT'S, YOU BETTER WATCH OUT. 

Judge.


"Don't judge a book by its cover" nice saying right? Sighz, if only some people understood the meaning of this. 

Well, I've been contemplating to blog about this one but............let's just let it out yah? Okay. So here is it. 

Okay, I think most of the people who are generally close to me would know that I am very very VERY PARANOID AND INSECURE. I get paranoid over every single shit that happened. And very insecure about the way I look, the way I dress and stuffs like that. It took me VERY VERY long to actually step out of the "insecure zone" and finally feel comfortable again. Especially with what i'm wearing to school/out/whatnot. Usually I will plan what to wear and pack my bag the day before and stuffs like that. But on my late days, i'll just grab whatever I see and wear it. So..............some months back, someone actually told me off. Like in a very upsetting(well to me it is) way. Like "what are you wearing omg" or "omg what kind of fashion sense you have here" or "sial la buruk sia (wahlao ugly sia)" or "that shoe -blahblahblah-" something like that. Tbh, my self -esteem dropped and my insecurity level rises afterwards. 

Well, I would LIE and say that it doesn't hurt or whatnot. Okay it hurts for a while lah, and then it gets ok and then the cycle repeats itself. What happened to "be yourself"? Now its like......."be what the society wants you to be" and it sucks because some people rather die than be themselves. That's how ridiculous society is. AND IT SUCKS SO MUCH. I don't come from a family who dresses up and who's loaded with cash so I can get all those fancy and expensive clothes. Understand please? I know my fashion sense is like............ NEGATIVE 987654321 but please.

I'm not blogging to like hit on the person or whatnot but I HAVE FEELINGS YA KNOW. And it kinda hurts when you tell me off like that. So yeah:/

Okay thats all for tonight.
BYE XOXO.

Inhale inhale inhale, wipes mucus from nose. Repeat.