Tuesday, October 8, 2013
- Tuesday, October 08, 2013
(Something personal, you may ignore this if you want to.)
Judge.
{I think this picture really explains everything.}
"Don't judge a book by its cover" nice saying right? Sighz, if only some people understood the meaning of this.
Well, I've been contemplating to blog about this one but............let's just let it out yah? Okay. So here is it.
Okay, I think most of the people who are generally close to me would know that I am very very VERY PARANOID AND INSECURE. I get paranoid over every single shit that happened. And very insecure about the way I look, the way I dress and stuffs like that. It took me VERY VERY long to actually step out of the "insecure zone" and finally feel comfortable again. Especially with what i'm wearing to school/out/whatnot. Usually I will plan what to wear and pack my bag the day before and stuffs like that. But on my late days, i'll just grab whatever I see and wear it. So..............some months back, someone actually told me off. Like in a very upsetting(well to me it is) way. Like "what are you wearing omg" or "omg what kind of fashion sense you have here" or "sial la buruk sia (wahlao ugly sia)" or "that shoe -blahblahblah-" something like that. Tbh, my self -esteem dropped and my insecurity level rises afterwards.
Well, I would LIE and say that it doesn't hurt or whatnot. Okay it hurts for a while lah, and then it gets ok and then the cycle repeats itself. What happened to "be yourself"? Now its like......."be what the society wants you to be" and it sucks because some people rather die than be themselves. That's how ridiculous society is. AND IT SUCKS SO MUCH. I don't come from a family who dresses up and who's loaded with cash so I can get all those fancy and expensive clothes. Understand please? I know my fashion sense is like............ NEGATIVE 987654321 but please.
I'm not blogging to like hit on the person or whatnot but I HAVE FEELINGS YA KNOW. And it kinda hurts when you tell me off like that. So yeah:/
Okay thats all for tonight.
BYE XOXO.
