Monday, December 16, 2013
- Monday, December 16, 2013
Yes, I still can't sleep so here's another blog post about : Friendships.
"Friends will either break or make you" - anon.
Well, true enough. And i'm lucky and blessed for all the sweet and religious people around me right now. I think without you guys I wouldn't be as religious as I am now. And also blessed to have those positive people who always always always have the never give up attitude and the always concentrate and be focused on studies attitude.
Just so you know, I've had recent fallouts with a couple of mates this few months. Sigh, and it sucks because I never wanted it to happen. I had two fallouts to be exact. One of which is very unexpected and I never wanted it to happen but it did. I don't know whether its me and my ego or was it really the other person who was trying to test my patience.
Where shall I start? Sigh. I am tired of putting other people before myself first. Why? Simply because...........they don't appreciate. They just don't. They want everybody to accommodate to their schedule and when everybody accommodates, they will have plans to back out la what la. And it's not the first time it happened. When a couple of us told you off, you weren't happy and you left us, left the group. Wow, so that's how much you value our friendship. Instead of mending things, you just left and act as if nothing happened. I wonder if you even felt sorry or felt bad for ditching us for some other set of people who you just met like couple days before. Sigh, idk man.
Next fallout, well, this one wasn't expected. Okay maybe it was. If there's something you ought to know about me, it'll be that I don't really like hanging out/mixing around with people who contantly brings me down. Why? Because I hate feeling all shitty and negative and all about myself. The more shitty I feel, the more paranoid I become and the more my self-confidence will decrease. If you really meant good to me by criticizing me, then i'm sorry. I really don't like to be criticized, well nobody likes to. Maybe an alternative would be telling me nicely instead of just shooting me down with hurtful words. I swear you don't know how many times I broke down and cry because of those words.
Do you want to know a ridiculous story?
One day a boy P fell in love with girl A but girl B was super jealous and girl B wanted to steal boy away from girl A(but girl A doesn't even gives a shit about boy). Girl B did all sort of stuffs to
make boy P fall in love with her including flirting in an obvious way. Boy P doesn't even care about girl B, instead boy P wants to avoid talking to girl B in any way. One day, boy P confessed to girl A about his feelings and then..............................girl A rejected him indirectly because she belongs to someone else. Guess what, girl B dropped girl A a text telling her to back off. Now the problem is, boy P is trying so hard and girl A is not even doing anything...and girl B tells girl A to back off. Ridiculous right? Hahahahhahahahhahahahahaha:D
Okay, it's gonna be 2 soon, shall head to bed(I hope I could manage to).
OAKY GOODNIGHT AND THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG GAISE :B
"Friends will either break or make you" - anon.
Well, true enough. And i'm lucky and blessed for all the sweet and religious people around me right now. I think without you guys I wouldn't be as religious as I am now. And also blessed to have those positive people who always always always have the never give up attitude and the always concentrate and be focused on studies attitude.
Just so you know, I've had recent fallouts with a couple of mates this few months. Sigh, and it sucks because I never wanted it to happen. I had two fallouts to be exact. One of which is very unexpected and I never wanted it to happen but it did. I don't know whether its me and my ego or was it really the other person who was trying to test my patience.
Where shall I start? Sigh. I am tired of putting other people before myself first. Why? Simply because...........they don't appreciate. They just don't. They want everybody to accommodate to their schedule and when everybody accommodates, they will have plans to back out la what la. And it's not the first time it happened. When a couple of us told you off, you weren't happy and you left us, left the group. Wow, so that's how much you value our friendship. Instead of mending things, you just left and act as if nothing happened. I wonder if you even felt sorry or felt bad for ditching us for some other set of people who you just met like couple days before. Sigh, idk man.
Next fallout, well, this one wasn't expected. Okay maybe it was. If there's something you ought to know about me, it'll be that I don't really like hanging out/mixing around with people who contantly brings me down. Why? Because I hate feeling all shitty and negative and all about myself. The more shitty I feel, the more paranoid I become and the more my self-confidence will decrease. If you really meant good to me by criticizing me, then i'm sorry. I really don't like to be criticized, well nobody likes to. Maybe an alternative would be telling me nicely instead of just shooting me down with hurtful words. I swear you don't know how many times I broke down and cry because of those words.
Do you want to know a ridiculous story?
One day a boy P fell in love with girl A but girl B was super jealous and girl B wanted to steal boy away from girl A(but girl A doesn't even gives a shit about boy). Girl B did all sort of stuffs to
make boy P fall in love with her including flirting in an obvious way. Boy P doesn't even care about girl B, instead boy P wants to avoid talking to girl B in any way. One day, boy P confessed to girl A about his feelings and then..............................girl A rejected him indirectly because she belongs to someone else. Guess what, girl B dropped girl A a text telling her to back off. Now the problem is, boy P is trying so hard and girl A is not even doing anything...and girl B tells girl A to back off. Ridiculous right? Hahahahhahahahhahahahahaha:D
Okay, it's gonna be 2 soon, shall head to bed(I hope I could manage to).
OAKY GOODNIGHT AND THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG GAISE :B
- Monday, December 16, 2013
HEY GUYS!
Fwah, term test is over and guess what?! IT'S TIME FOR THE LONG AWAITED TERM BREAK YIPPEEEEEE okay, not really YIPPEE because I HAVE LIKE A LOT OF STUFFS TO DO FOR THE TERM BREAK AND I HAVE LOTSA PLANS FOR THIS BREAK.
Next week will be super hectic for me because...................................I have a red hat certification workshop(23-24), TPSilat camp(26-27) && Project Makeover(28) back to back. HECTIC OR WHAT SIA?! HAHAHAHAHA.
And okay so far my assignments are looking good, kkay only because I managed to complete the first part of ENNK assignment. Still stuck at programming assignments cause I SUCK AT PROGRAMMING. Yes, I do. And I know long time that programming was not my forte. Maybe i'm more interested on the networking site. Woohoooweeeeee. Hehehehehe.
Okay, moving on........today's been a v emotional day for me.
WHY?
KK, read on......
Today is like the first time in like uhm 10 months together (and 1 year plus re-contacting each other) that I have to seperate from my boyfriend. WHY? Hahaha, reason is: He's off to Gold Coast, Australia with his family for a holiday trip together. Of course i'm feeling so sad and all but my sadness is reduced by like 10 percent because I get to see him at the airport and send him off. It wasn't easy to say goodbye(because we had multiple byebyes and after we head off to our seperate ways, we still FaceTime and IT IS SO HARD TO SAY BYE) and the fact that he's gonna leave me ALONE for like 8 days kills me inside. Hahaha, not a big deal right? 8 DAYS JE. But YES, it is a freaking big deal for me because........................................................it's my first time being away from him and i'm so not used to sleeping without his goodnight texts(the reason why i'm still awake right now). Anyway, I hope you have a safe trip there syg, enjoy yourself and COME BACK IN ONE PIECE KKAY:D. 8 days away from you is gonna be tough! But we'll pull through. Hopefully there's some wifi or some shit there. Sigh, I REALLY CANT IMAGINE YOU GOING NS. Baru gi holiday dah rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu semacam(mind you, its only been like 2 hours since he flew off), if NS........................Idk man. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Not to forget, today's my daddeh's 43rd birthday. Fwah ayah, you're getting old but still handsome in my eyes ok! I've said whatever I wanna say on IG/FB/text. I just wanna let chu know that I could never ask for anyone better because you're the best I could ask for. I am always waking up feeling blessed to have a rich family. Not rich in terms of money but rich in terms of happiness. I know you worked hard to get us where we are now. You taught us that happiness need not be measured by any item but happiness can be measured by the amount of time you bond with your family, more to memories made. I am also blessed to have a dad who constantly believes in me in whatever I do. I remembered when I decided to turn over a new leaf, you actually supported me and encouraged me. When I first started poly, I had no hope of getting good grades, I told you that I was struggling the first semester. I cried, I almost gave up but you told me you know I can pull through, you instill hope into me. My term test results was quite ok. I had a couple of B's and C's. You told me to work hard and get a good GPA, I told you that it was impossible and you told me "Ayah believe in my daughter, I know you have the fighting spirit inside of you. I know you can get good GPA". And true enough, I did manage to get a good GPA last sem. I hope I can do you proud again this sem, ayah. Thanks for giving so much to the family. I really hope once I graduate, I could contribute back to you. I love you so much ayah, I lav you the same as how I love arwah mama;'). I'll do whatever it takes to make both of you proud;")
Okay, I shall try to force myself to sleep or continue with assignments! I think i'll go with number two. Hahahaha, okay byebye guys:D
Fwah, term test is over and guess what?! IT'S TIME FOR THE LONG AWAITED TERM BREAK YIPPEEEEEE okay, not really YIPPEE because I HAVE LIKE A LOT OF STUFFS TO DO FOR THE TERM BREAK AND I HAVE LOTSA PLANS FOR THIS BREAK.
Next week will be super hectic for me because...................................I have a red hat certification workshop(23-24), TPSilat camp(26-27) && Project Makeover(28) back to back. HECTIC OR WHAT SIA?! HAHAHAHAHA.
And okay so far my assignments are looking good, kkay only because I managed to complete the first part of ENNK assignment. Still stuck at programming assignments cause I SUCK AT PROGRAMMING. Yes, I do. And I know long time that programming was not my forte. Maybe i'm more interested on the networking site. Woohoooweeeeee. Hehehehehe.
Okay, moving on........today's been a v emotional day for me.
WHY?
KK, read on......
Today is like the first time in like uhm 10 months together (and 1 year plus re-contacting each other) that I have to seperate from my boyfriend. WHY? Hahaha, reason is: He's off to Gold Coast, Australia with his family for a holiday trip together. Of course i'm feeling so sad and all but my sadness is reduced by like 10 percent because I get to see him at the airport and send him off. It wasn't easy to say goodbye(because we had multiple byebyes and after we head off to our seperate ways, we still FaceTime and IT IS SO HARD TO SAY BYE) and the fact that he's gonna leave me ALONE for like 8 days kills me inside. Hahaha, not a big deal right? 8 DAYS JE. But YES, it is a freaking big deal for me because........................................................it's my first time being away from him and i'm so not used to sleeping without his goodnight texts(the reason why i'm still awake right now). Anyway, I hope you have a safe trip there syg, enjoy yourself and COME BACK IN ONE PIECE KKAY:D. 8 days away from you is gonna be tough! But we'll pull through. Hopefully there's some wifi or some shit there. Sigh, I REALLY CANT IMAGINE YOU GOING NS. Baru gi holiday dah rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu semacam(mind you, its only been like 2 hours since he flew off), if NS........................Idk man. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Not to forget, today's my daddeh's 43rd birthday. Fwah ayah, you're getting old but still handsome in my eyes ok! I've said whatever I wanna say on IG/FB/text. I just wanna let chu know that I could never ask for anyone better because you're the best I could ask for. I am always waking up feeling blessed to have a rich family. Not rich in terms of money but rich in terms of happiness. I know you worked hard to get us where we are now. You taught us that happiness need not be measured by any item but happiness can be measured by the amount of time you bond with your family, more to memories made. I am also blessed to have a dad who constantly believes in me in whatever I do. I remembered when I decided to turn over a new leaf, you actually supported me and encouraged me. When I first started poly, I had no hope of getting good grades, I told you that I was struggling the first semester. I cried, I almost gave up but you told me you know I can pull through, you instill hope into me. My term test results was quite ok. I had a couple of B's and C's. You told me to work hard and get a good GPA, I told you that it was impossible and you told me "Ayah believe in my daughter, I know you have the fighting spirit inside of you. I know you can get good GPA". And true enough, I did manage to get a good GPA last sem. I hope I can do you proud again this sem, ayah. Thanks for giving so much to the family. I really hope once I graduate, I could contribute back to you. I love you so much ayah, I lav you the same as how I love arwah mama;'). I'll do whatever it takes to make both of you proud;")
Okay, I shall try to force myself to sleep or continue with assignments! I think i'll go with number two. Hahahaha, okay byebye guys:D
