Blessed.

So lately I've been having a couple of setbacks in life and i'm thankful to have such wonderful friends & an awesome boyfriend who was there for me to hear me out and stuffs liddat.

If you don't know yet, I hardly share my problems with anyone. Like REAL problems. Not those minor minor ones. It's not that I don't want to share my problems or what not but sometimes I don't share my problems with people because.................I don't trust them with my life. I met a couple of people who asks you "what's wrong" because they simply want to know/enjoy seeing you suffer/whatnot. Not with the pure intention of helping you get through it or maybe go through your hard times with you.

Often, I get pissed with telling people my long story and getting replies like..................."oh, okay". WHAT THE CURRY FISH LAH. I'm sorry lah but an "oh okay" does not calms the sorrow heart but it makes it worser la please.

So recently, I shared my sorrows&my pain with my closest friends and they were damn sweet to motivate+encourage+even give me advice to help me overcome my sorrows. I was feeling seriously blessed at that point of time please. Because you know, everyone can be your friend but not everyone will be there to support you when you're down. Like they say "when you're happy, your friends know who you are but when you're sad, you know who your friends are". I am really blessed tho because most of my friends are the supportive kind. And they will be there for you no matter what(tested proven and positive results shown hahahahhahaah!).


Not to forget, the darling boyfriend is always there for me too. He's been a good sport. I'm not even near to kidding. I've had a couple of failures in relationships to determine that he's the best I ever had. Yepp, i'm not even kidding on this one. Okay maybe we don't do things like normal couple do in public(holding hands, hugging, etc) instead we annoy the hell out of each other every single time. And we don't feel annoyed but we feel joy and excitement for annoying each other mwehehe :3.Weird right? I know. Hahaha, Izzad is prolly the only boyfriend who can tolerate my annoyingness and my irritatingness. And he is the only one who loves me for me. I don't have to put up heavy makeup or dress up like a princess or even lose some fats to impress him because he loves me just the way I am yay! And he's always listening to me nagging at him(heheheh, sorry baby!), complaining about my day and he ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS makes me smile in the end of a shitty day. THANKS BABY*INSERT HEARTS* I'm blessed to havvv you sayang! Probably the best gift Allah swt gave to me:').

Okay, so I know it's a boring post laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Sigh..............
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OKBYE:*

Oh gosh how much I miss blogging.
First and foremost, helllluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu people(idk if y'all still read my blog and notice if I update this, HAHA!).

Ahhhhh it's been so long since I last updated. MONTHS since I updated to be exact. Well, i'm sorry for abandoning you dear bloggy. I was super busy with my life and I swear I hardly had time for myself and my loved ones. Last sem(1.2) was super hectic please. I had assignments after assignments, tests after tests, submissions after submissions and I swear I was going crazy and I was SERIOUSLY on the verge of giving up. But there's only one thing that kept me going, my only motivation, my dad.

Well, yes. My dad is my motivation to keep going and to keep achieving greater heights. The reason why I want to do well is because of ma daddy. I wanna do well, get good grades(but this sem, I don't think I'll be able to do so) because I want my dad to be happy. So that people would know that he brought up his child well because I understand that in this cruel world, every single shit that you do would reflect to your parents in the end. I know "people" are looking at my dad everyday and 'finding out' about his life and how his children are doing. They're just waiting for the time to criticize my dad and no no i'm not gonna let that happen. Maybe that's the reason why I work very hard to maintain my grades and all. I love my dad and I wouldn't want to do anything bad that will reflect badly on him.

Friends. Well, my friends havvvv been super understanding patient and v sweet thruout this hectic journey.  Friends havvvv been there for me to constantly complain about my hectic life and yada yada. Thank Allah swt for these wonderful friends. You know who you are la huh! Hehehe. And of course, I'm glad to have a boyfriend who is ever so supportive and understanding. During my 'hectic' week, I didn't really spend time with him cause I needa rush lots of stuffs and he wasn't even mad at me. In return, he motivated me, supported me and 'lectured' me when I was on the verge of giving up on life.

Oh yes, I met my grandmum after so long today! Missed her man! Managed to catch up on life and stuffs like that. How I wish she was staying with us rn. I couldn really learn some more ancient recipes from her. Kekekekeke.

Well, for sure there's gonna be a bad in every good right.

Let's put it this way...........uhm, sometimes I don't know what people want from me. Every single shit that I do is always always always WRONG. Why? IDK MAN. Sigh. It's like the malay saying, Ketawa salah, senyum salam, sedih salah, nangis salah, diam salah, marah salah, senang cakap semua salah. To cut whatever I said in malay short, "Everything that I do is wrong, be it laughing, smiling, crying, scolding or even remain silent". Ridiculous isn't it. Tbh, I am still trying to figure out how to act around this particular person cause WHATEVER I DO IS ALWAYS WRONG. I am HONESTLY sick and tired of all the shits that you are giving me. Please, if you are reading this LEAVE MY FRIENDS AND I ALONE BECAUSE WE DON'T BOTHER YOU, NOT EVEN ONE BIT OK. We didn't do anything to disturb your life so please don't make our life a living hell. Pretty please. I SAID PLEASE OK SO STAHP WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING K. Because you're not gonna get anything from doing all this to us. Honestly. It will just reflect on how ridiculous you are. And it's not even a good thing so STAHP IT k. It would be nice if we could just be friends and JUST friends. If there's one thing I could advice you, it would be about choose who you wanna share this sensitive issues with. Because some are just there to 'break you' instead of 'fixing you' if you get what I mean. Yeah;/.

If there was one thing that I learned in year 1.2, it would be about TRUSTING PEOPLE. Yeap, I've had a couple of 'trust issues' in this sem and I finally learned how to trust people and what kind of people I should trust. After this sem, I know better about trusting people and stuffs like that. So yeah..

HAHAHAHAHA OH GOSH, I really missed blogging huh!
Kkay, I gotta head to bed now. So uber tired sigh. Xx.

Goodnight gaise luv y'all mwa:*
Xx.

NATIAHEHEHE.